I just wanna say

That being a Mommy makes me happier than ANYTHING I have ever done in my life.  Period.

Baby is starting to cling to me, and I know I need to get him more social interaction.  We go out every day.  I have lots of friends.  But Baby isnt getting enough attention from non-Mommys.  And as much as I enjoy the adoration, his dependence on ONLY me isnt good for either of us in the long run. Even though I *know* its a stage they all grow out of...I am taking it as a wake-up call.

We're new down here.  I have lots of friends (too many, really), but none of them use babysitters.  Everyone has either family nearby or their church.  I have neither...and I am far from my network.  I havent had any luck getting babysitter leads, and I hate the thought of cold-calling someone.  I mean who would leave a baby with an untested stranger?  I can call for references, but the references I really trust are my friends.

I think part of this stems from the fact that I just love being alone at home with Baby.  I am a normally VERY social person.  We thought I would be lonely down here, apart from my friends.  Nope.  I am just so thoroughly CONTENT these days.  Sure, there's drama (come on...its ME!).  But no word explains where I am better than "content".  I want for almost nothing, and that fact has quieted and slowed me down.  I am less interested in being social, and have become a home-body...and I dont even care, it feels good!  I'm in some kind of Zen place (although, living amoungst all of our unpacked boxes, you wouldnt guess to see our home!).

The ironic thing is that I have been the mom that was FINE leaving my baby with people.  They say most new moms are crazy about not letting anyone take their newborn.  Not me.  Reusker and I went out for our anniversary (dinner & a movie) when Baby was a mere 3 days old.  C'mon...My mom knew what she was doing!  If I found a babysitter I trusted, Baby would have had an evening with him/her once a week since birth.  I believe in that...and its good for him to know other people and its good for him when Reusker and I have time to strengthen our relationship (or even just SLEEP!).

So, now its time to make it happen.  Not only will Daddy and I get date nights, but Baby needs new people.  I dont know where I am going to find them...but I am on a mission.  I *do* leave him in the (wonderful) nursery at the gym, almost every day.  He loves it there, and they love him...and I get to see him between my activities (and I get Meg time!).  But, I think he needs more...

So, now its time to make it happen.  (am I convincing anyone?)

Comments

[shelley]

I wanna babysit!!

[Lizzy B]

Talk to the people who work in the gym nursery. Maybe one of them would be interested in taking Baby on...