am I so thoroughly exhausted?
For about two weeks it has hurt to move...I just ache I am so tired. Some kind of crazy fatigue. And my back actually feels better since going to the chiropractor (he jokes with me that I entered a cynic and leave a junkie...SO true!).
I cant blame the baby...he sleeps a full 9-12 hours PLUS naps (although I'm up to pump, damn it). And Reusker is such a great help. Baby is heavy, but that's nothing.
This is me...something inside. I'm hoping its just mental...that I've been a little uninspired. Listless. Lack of focus. I even felt like just flopping in my yoga class, which usually energizes me.
Please dont let this be some kind of sickness...now that we have reduced insurance!! Wouldnt that be just my luck?
Good news: my brother is coming tomorrow! YEAH! YEAH! YEAH! My brother is great...always fun and easy to chill out with. He and Reusker are best friends (Tim was his best man at our wedding 1 1/2 years ago). When we're together, I always end up being the third wheel...but there are no two men I'd rather be around! Tim hasnt exactly warmed to the baby...I think he's scared, being a bachelor and all. That's fine. He'll also want to do all kinds of work at our home, because he cant sit still and all our unfinished-ness drives him crazy. Again, that's cool with me. I'm excited to see him, I miss my bro.
Reusker bought me horseback riding lessons for my birthday, so we are going to go out to a local farm Friday afternoon. I am both nervous and excited. Reusker's whole family rides, and I am intimidated by horses...I worry they are so strong and can sense my hesitation. Its very unusual for me to be worried about activities where I might get hurt...if its fun, I'm good to go (unlike so many other areas where I fret, just not here). I hope I get some lazy old horse that barely moves! That, and a helmet!
We have so many other plans: taking Baby to the air-filled jungle gym on Friday, neighbor's dinner party Saturday, our town's streetfair Saturday. I am "letting go"...it will be a fun weekend, without working. Those are hard for me (no productivity)...but I'll embrace the R&R. These days if I'm not working, I'd be happy sleeping! Or watching TV. But since we dont want Baby exposed/addicted, I rarely get a chance unless he's napping...and that is precious free time to get a few more things done. Ah, the juggle...
I hope you feel better! Maybe it's because of stress.
Posted by: Lizzy B | April 28, 2006 at 11:19 AM